The Elephant

It’s sad that this avenue for my thoughts has been cheapened to a frequent update on how my life is going. In the ‘days of ol’ I always had more to offer back then. Lots of things to update on but I’d like to focus on the most important aspect:

I’ve always been the personality to talk about the elephant in the room. Lot’s of people have been bringing up a particular elephant in my life, relationship status. I’m at a time in life where every relationship I choose to delve into must be one of a serious nature. I know that sounds elderly hence the title of my blog. Most things that I think and feel on most issues tend to be that of an old man. Conservative and old fashioned I will no longer be dating every girl that shows interest in me. I’m tired of that, the thing that I like most about having a relationship with a girl is the companionship that it offers. Dating a different girl every weekend doesn’t adhere to that mind-frame, therefore those actions have been discontinued. (Not to mention it’s stinking expensive)

It goes deeper. I’ve also dedicated this next month and possibly more months to God and me. There’s always work to be done on a God fearing Christian. However, I feel that if my concentration and meditation is wholly on God (and not on nurturing a new relationship) I can accomplish this. Let’s face it; fostering a new relationship is always difficult. But my emotional plot thickens. I’m not entirely sure that I can be the man that God wants me to be in a relationship. By that I mean a list of things that I believe a man of God to have a handle on when leading a girl in a pure relationship. 1) Having God in the numero uno position in my life. 2) Having consistent individual prayer time as well as with whomever I will be dating. Which would lead into 3) a consistent growing and devotion time together. In my previous relationships, being comfortable in prayer and devotion was absolutely beneficial. Growing in God is always an amazing experience, but to experience it with a third party is truly special.

I just want to be everything I need to be before I plunge into something serious with anyone. Not just for my benefit, but hers as well. My wife is out there and I’m not worried that I’ll find her. But I think I’ll find her quicker when I let God be the girl in my life for a while. I know that sounds gross, get over it. I want a Godly wife! I want her to be steeped in the Word, and I want her to challenge me and make me better. Additionally I want her to scratch the back of my head when I drive, but that’s more of a request.

Thanks for reading.